Day 73. Healthy Food Makes You Fat

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust what media says about what is healthy food/what is unhealthy food unconditionally, and within this would thus adjust my food-intake accordingly in where I would place different values into different food – and every time I would eat something I would access that information/knowledge that I had read/heard about healthy/unhealthy food and thus think about whether or not I am eating something that is apparently “good” for me or not. – judging the food according to the knowledge and information that I have received and thus trusting an outside source instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that my body is right here – I do not need any knowledge or information but I have to re-learn what actually supports me through cross-referencing with my body. I commit myself to stop eating according to knowledge, information and judgments that I have developed from what I have read/heard through media and furthermore I commit myself to cross-reference with my body to see what is actually good for my body.

• I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to get to know my own body and what foods works well for my body – but would instead believe and trust my knowledge and information in relation to what is healthy and what is unhealthy – not seeing or realizing that the knowledge and information is not based on what is actually best for the body but merely based on profit and earning money. Within this I see, realize and understand that media cannot even know what is best for my body because not all bodies works the same – therefor I realize that I have to find out and relearn what is best for my body and thus developing real understanding for what my body works well on. I commit myself to stop trusting knowledge and information about healthy/unhealthy food and instead always, with no exceptions cross-reference with my body and within this stopping myself from creating beliefs and judgments towards foods.

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge certain foods as unhealthy based on knowledge and information and within this would thus judge myself if/when I have/eat what I have judged as unhealthy – thinking and believing that I am doing something wrong and bad. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to what I eat – thinking and believing that I am defined according to what I eat in where I am seeing myself as undisciplined if I eat what I have defined as unhealthy and defining myself as good and disciplined if I only eat what I have defined as healthy.                 I commit myself to in the moment of eating not participate in my mind’s definition of healthy/unhealthy but in the moment assess how my body response and in this I commit myself to assess the intake of foods within how my body respond as well the nutrition of the food - not based on healthy/unhealthy but what the foods can assist with in my physical body’s support in this world.

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to integrate the information/knowledge about what is healthy/unhealthy food to such an extent that I would start to go into immediate/automatic reaction when I decide to eat something that I have defined as unhealthy in where I immediately access that information/knowledge that I have obtained and integrated from what I have read/heard in relation to what is good/bad to eat and would thus feel bad for eating certain foods. When and as I see that I am going into immediate/automatic reactions when I decide to eat something that I have defined as unhealthy – I stop and I breathe – I do not accept or allow myself to continue going into/participating within this reaction but instead I commit myself to slow myself down, take one deep breath and assess/see/try out what foods is supportive for my body – to within this realize and see with clarity that the knowledge and information I have in relation to healthy/unhealthy foods where never actually based on real, physically cross-referenced understanding.

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make food into something more than just food through placing different judgments/values into it and within this not seeing, realizing or taking into consideration how my body functions and what it requires or what supports my body – but would instead eat according to my mind’s assessments/judgments/values of food. I commit myself to start trying new foods that I have previously avoided because of different judgments/values and within this I commit myself to stop myself and breathe when/as I see that I am assessing the foods in relation to what my mind’s interpretation of what is healthy/unhealthy and instead assess how my body response in relation to the foods that I am eating – realizing that my mind’s response/assessments of/towards foods is not trustworthy/reliable/supportive of my physical.

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place, link and connect certain images to certain foods in where I would see a picture/image of a fat and ugly person when I would consider having something that I have defined as “unhealthy” – and thus would fear eating that because of a belief that I would become that picture/image and on the other hand would see a picture/image of a “healthy”/fit/slim person when I consider having foods that I have defined as healthy and “good” or when I consider just not eating at all. Within this I see, realize and understand that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am just a picture/image – just like the pictures/images within my mind – and that I would thus place values/judgments into the pictures and within that linking/connecting the values/judgments to certain foods. I commit myself to stop and breathe when and as I see that I am accessing pictures within my mind and linking it to certain foods and instead I see and realize that the pictures/images is not real – it is all within my mind, just like the picture/image I have created of myself within my mind in where I would think and believe that I am merely a picture. I commit myself to stop and breathe when and as I see that I am judging/defining myself according to the picture I have of myself within my mind and instead bring myself back to this physical reality. Within this I now see, realize and understand that if I would be the only one on this planet – I wouldn’t be concerned about how my body looks but I would make sure that my body is supported – so thus the belief/idea that I am defined by how I look and judge myself according to how I perceive my body to look is not real since it would change if my physical reality changed.