- I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to assist and support myself within busy periods of
time in where I have a lot on my plate – but have instead accepted and allowed
myself to form a pattern of generating and manifesting a fight with and within
myself, where I am essentially attempting and trying to fight myself into ‘making
it’ – not seeing or realizing that it is during such periods of time that I am
in most need of actually assisting, supporting and caring for myself in the sense
of working with me instead of against me, through finding practical solutions
to be able to walk through what needs to be done – and so within this I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create even more pressure,
strain and stress within myself during periods of time where I am faced with a
lot of things that needs to be done - and in that creating and putting extra
strain and pressure of stress on my physical body as well – and so within this
I see, realize and understand that through going into reactions and stress when
I am faced with busy periods of time I am only making myself experiencing the
situation as extra-difficult – where I am the one that decides to experience my
practical reality as difficult and stressful – when all the while I can
actually within that assist and support myself to direct myself into simply
walking through what needs to be done – that generating and manifesting stress
will not, and cannot, help me in any kind of way.
- I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I
am faced with stressful situations/moments/periods – I am merely fueling the
stress through accepting and allowing myself to react towards the situation/the
things that I have to get done – where I realize that I have formed a habit of
going into a reaction of stress/anxiety whenever I perceive it to be ‘too much’
– and from that reaction will go into a fight with myself – where I believe that
I require to push myself to get it done and within that not seeing or realizing
that fighting fuels the stress even more – and that within stress I am actually
unable to direct myself effectively.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to self-sabotage through making everything that I have to do
into a factor of stress, where I am immediately attaching stress to anything
and everything that I see must be done – and within this I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to make things so much harder than what they
have to be through seeing what needs to be done as something that ‘I must do’ –
as though it is a matter of life or death – not seeing or realizing how I am
making the smallest things seem so huge through accepting and allowing myself
to look at the points within the mind, where I am essentially blowing things
out of proportion instead of practically looking at and walking through one
thing at a time – because within this I see, realize and understand that in
physical space and time I can only do so much and I can only do one thing at a
time – however, when I am within the mind thinking about everything at once it
will seem overwhelming and too much – and so I see and realize that I am
self-sabotaging when and as I, within the mind, list all the things that I
apparently have to do – because within that I am not at all looking at
practical reality or what I can do right here and right now – but will instead
merely prevent myself from moving, from directing myself into actually doing –
and am thus wasting time thinking about what needs to be done – where I see,
realize and understand that what I could do to assist and support myself is to
instead just decide, within that moment, what needs to be prioritized and then
just do it, just walk it and then from there further assess what needs to be
done etc. – to in that be here, move myself here – instead of generating stress
and going into complete paralysis.
- Within this I commit myself to
re-instruct myself within busy periods of time to, when I see myself reacting
to/towards the situation/the things that I have to do, assist and support
myself by going through what I can and within that walk it breath by breath,
and whenever stress come up, I take a moment, breathe, get out of the mind and
get back into the physical, placing my attention and focus on the thing I am busy
doing – saying to myself “do what you can” – and so within that really practice
that point of walking it through one breath at a time to prevent myself from
making it seem overwhelming.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to go into a reaction of fear and anxiety as an automatic
response to when I see myself being relaxed and not stressed – where I have
accepted and allowed myself to connect the absence of stress to fear, believing
that ‘something is wrong’ as a consequence of how I have adapted and aligned myself
with the constant and continuous internal experience of being stressed and
anxious.
- Within this I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to self-sabotage within moments where I am not
experiencing stress through generating and going into an experience of
discomfort due to believing that ‘this is not how I should experience myself’
based on the inherent pattern which I realize that I have, in a way, become
addicted to – where I basically see ‘being stressed’ as the ‘normal state of my
beingness’ – and within that accepting that to be and become what I am ‘comfortable’
within, how I believe that I should experience myself – and then when I do not
experience stress, something is apparently wrong – and so within that not
seeing or realizing how I am actually deliberately self-sabotaging in moments where
I do not experience stress – where I am, within such situations/moments, essentially going into the mind where I go
over everything that I apparently ‘must do’ – and in that am consequentially placing
myself back into the pattern of stress.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear the absence of stress – and within this I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate and manifest
stress within moments where I see that I am not actually stressed through going
into the mind in where I am essentially searching for stuff that I can stress
about, where I allow myself to go into the belief that ‘I must have forgotten
something’ as an automatic response to the absence of stress – and so within
this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume and
expect that I have forgotten or missed something if I do not experience stress –
not seeing or realizing that this is how I tend to self-sabotage, where I have
allowed myself to get so used to and addicted to the inherent pattern of stress
and struggle that I am within that deliberately making life and living more
difficult for myself, as though I want to struggle/fight – where I even see
myself capable of stopping and directing myself out of the stress – but where I
have allowed myself to form a resistance towards experiencing anything else
than stress as a consequence of how I have mistakenly connected the absence of
stress to ‘something is wrong’.
- I forgive myself that I have, within
and throughout my life, accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that
when I do not experience stress, then that must mean that I have forgotten
something – where I have for such an extended period of time existed within the
habit of always stressing about every single thing I have to do – and how I
have, within that, merely ‘escaped’ the stress within moments where I actually
have forgotten something, which then later on, when remembering the thing I had
forgotten, would go into an even more intense experience of stress – and so I
see and realize that I have consequentially formed an automatic pattern of
going into fear when I do not experience stress, where I am connecting that
absence of stress to ‘having forgotten something’ – and so within this I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and
understand that I have the ability to actually look at and investigate whether
I have forgotten something or not without going into or generating stress
immediately when I find something that I have missed, that the stress in itself
will not and cannot help me or support me in any kind of way within such
situations – and so I realize that fearing the absence of stress due to
thinking and believing that that would imply that I have forgotten something is
really just an habitual pattern that I have created, a pattern which does not
support me.
- And therefor I commit myself to
assist and support myself within moments where I see that fear start to emerge
as a consequence of the absence of stress, where I see that thoughts about
whether I have forgotten something or not starts to appear – to within such
situations see and realize that I am busy generating the pattern of stress –
and so therefor I stop my participation and breathe, where I ground myself here
and move myself out of the fear and within that slow myself down where I
instead practically check my schedule/calendar and thus stick to practical
reality, where I see, realize and understand that I do not require stress
within that moment but to instead plan and organize my responsibilities.
