- I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to anticipate the worst case scenario
within situations as an attempt to ‘prepare’ myself due to thinking and believing
that it would be easier to face ‘the worst’ if I have prepared myself mentally
– not seeing or realizing how I am within this merely creating and generating
worry, stress and fear rather than preparing myself to face whatever comes up
when it is here – as I within this see, realize and understand that what I am
apparently preparing for within the mind is not an actual representation of
physical reality as I cannot for certain know what the future may/might bring –
so within this I see and realize that I am creating an alternate reality as an
imagination within the mind, and that participating within such imaginary
reality does not in any way prepare me for what may or might come – that I am
within this rather generating and fueling internal experiences of helplessness
and powerlessness – and therefor I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to automatically and instantaneously go into, participate within
and trust the mental ideas, conceptions and representations of the worst
scenario that comes up within the mind instead of seeing and realizing that participating
within and trusting these mental ideas, conceptions and representations of the
worst case scenario that comes up within the mind does not actually in any way
prepare or support me to be able to stand stable within myself and face
whatever is here – and so I realize that not a single mental idea and
imagination in relation to the future that comes up within the mind has never
and will never assist and support me to face actual reality in stability – that
the only way to actually face real reality in stability is through me,
directing and moving myself out of imaginations and instead make sure that I face
what is here in every moment.
- Within this I see,
realize and understand that anticipating the worst and participating within
internal imaginary realities wherein I envision the future as what it would be
like if the worst possible thing that could happen actually would happen, is
really not something that supports me – I mean, I have seen, so many times, how
such participation is really just in fact causing internal conflict and
friction, wherein I see and realize that I am making a situation worse and
harder for myself through my internal participation – because within this I see,
realize and understand that when I am accepting and allowing the mind to just
take charge - from the perspective of me, just blindly accepting and allowing
what comes up as imaginations within the mind – I am really just in fact
inflicting stress, anxiety, fear and worry – where this acceptance and
allowance thus places my physical body under even more strain in situations and
moments where my physical needs stability and care the most.
- I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being in control of my own
future in relation to the things and aspects of life that I really just cannot
change or decide over – and in this I forgive myself that I have not accepted
and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that, yes, there are things
in life that I cannot control – but what I do have control within and can
direct is who I am in relation to the things in life that I cannot control –
where I see, realize and understand that what would support me is to rather
place my focus and attention on that which I can decide over rather than on
that which I cannot control – and in this I commit myself to assist and support
myself within situations and moments where I see that I am preoccupied with
imaginary realities and future projections within the mind – where I within
that re-instruct myself to direct my focus and attention and to instead place
my awareness here, where I commit myself to support myself through focusing on
stabilizing myself rather than accepting and allowing myself to keep myself
preoccupied with that which I cannot control or change – to within this see,
realize and understand that participating within internal imaginary realities
will not make me prepared, will not change practical, physical reality but will
rather make me unstable, worried and anxious – so therefor I commit myself to
focus on and give myself the practice that I require to be able to stand stable
within myself and face actual reality and actual scenarios in real-time however
the situations may be – and in this trust myself to face what is here and walk
through what is here – and I commit myself to practice this point through
immediately stopping my participation within anticipations and future
projections when it comes up and instead bring myself back to here, breathe,
ground myself and so face what is here in this moment.
- I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to anticipate, expect and fear the worst
within situations where I am faced with something that I cannot foretell in the
sense of not knowing exactly what the future might bring – and within this I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately assume
and anticipate that the worst possible thing that could happen will happen –
where I furthermore forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate within internal imaginations and future projections that are based
on an alternate reality, representing the worst thing that I believe could
happen – instead of seeing and realizing that participating within such future
projections and internal imaginations is really not supporting me in any kind
of way but that such participation will rather just generate experiences of
fear, anxiety stress and worry – and I realize that instead of placing my focus
and attention within internal imaginary realities that leads to internal
turmoil I can within the moment decide not to participate, not to go into and not
follow such imaginations but to instead realize that I know where such internal
participation leads, and it’s really not supporting me in any kind of way – and
so therefor I commit myself to assist and support myself within moments and
situations where I see that my attention and focus are within an imaginary and
illusive reality that is playing out within the mind – where I within this stop
my participation, breathe and change my focus back to here, back to that which
exist directly here as the physical – where I no more accept and allow myself
to just blindly follow what comes up due to thinking and believing that it in
some way can help me – but instead I commit myself to immediately stop, where I
stop following and stop complying with what comes up and instead bring myself
back to here, back to breath where I focus on what is here within the moment.
- I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being ‘mentally prepared’
for the worst case scenario in the sense of being faced with a reality that I
haven’t conjured up within the mind beforehand – and so within that thinking
and believing that I am doing myself a favor through imagining and playing out
all the different scenarios and futures that I believe to be possible outcomes
– and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust
myself and my capacity to face and walk through any situation, as the actual
real reality, when it is here – because within this I see, realize and
understand that I cannot walk through or face something beforehand, before it
is actually, physically, practically here – and that when I ‘attempt to prepare
myself’ I am actually ONLY inflicting and generating fears, anxiety and stress
– so, therefor I see and realize that I am participating within, accepting and
allowing, self-manipulation and self-sabotage when and as I believe that I
require to and am doing myself a favor through internally imagining and playing
out the worst case scenario – that it will not in any way support me – and I
see, realize and understand that supporting myself through this would be to
focus on being here, on stabilizing myself within my relationship to me and
live self-responsibility through realizing that I do have the capacity and the
ability to face and walk anything when it is here, that I do have me, that I do
have the tools with which to utilize to stabilize myself within situations and
moments – so therefor I commit myself to make sure that I participate in, face
and walk through that which exists directly here as the physical, and trust
myself and my capacity to support myself and to do what is best within any
given situation – and in that realize that I can only walk and face that which
exists directly here – moment by moment, one breath at a time.
- I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically go into the mind where
I attempt and try to find out all the different possible outcomes and results,
as how my future may or might look or change, when I am being faced with
something unexpected as new information that I was not aware of and did not
take into account previously – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to go into a state of complete paranoia through letting the mind
run rampant when being faced with something unexpected – where I furthermore
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt and try to
fathom how my life may or might change within the mind – where I see and
realize that I cannot look at something direct and cannot see clearly when I
accept and allow myself to trust imaginations and thoughts and experiences that
emerges within the mind as a response to unexpected information – because within
that I am taking things to an extreme, where I see and realize that I cannot
trust what emerges as a response within the mind because in that I am merely
preventing myself from looking at solutions, from looking directly at what is
here, what I can practically do with such information, what I require doing to
assist and support myself and so walk it, step by step, seeing what needs to be
done as an assessment of what I require and need within my relationship to me,
within my life and reality and so align my life and living accordingly – and in
this I see and realize how simple it is, and how I make it complicated and overwhelming
when it in practicality doesn’t have to be that way, where I see that I can
make it easy through assisting and supporting myself to stop trusting what
emerges within the mind as a response and instead practically look at if there
is something I require to do/change within my life and living and thus what I
can do with such information – where I see and realize that all I require doing
is to continue assisting and supporting myself, making sure that I prioritize supporting
my physical and stabilizing my internal – and how, if or when my life may or
might change is then something I walk when it is here, and align my self-support
according to what is here – and therefor I commit myself to walk this for myself,
to assist and support myself through looking at what I require to do and what I
can do to support myself within every moment – where I align myself with that
which is here, where I assess practically what I require within the moment and
so walk it and align it according to what exists directly here.
