- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear that people will see me as less than others/not as
interesting or as good as other people and thus turn their backs on me and
leave or replace me with someone ‘better’ if I do not live up to and according
to the norms, as the constant strive to obtain and become the ideals that are
collectively being accepted as ideally within this society in terms of who and
how I believe I must and should be and present myself to the world for others
to see me as interesting enough/good enough/beautiful enough/worthy enough –
and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear existing on something other than a scale, measuring one's alignment and
affiliation with the ideal self-image consisting of what is being seen as
external perfection in terms of who and how one is, behaves and looks – wherein
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the
ideals that I have formed within the mind in relation to who and how I believe
I must be and so present and portray myself to the world to prevent others from
seeing me and the self-image I present as less than other people’s self-images –
due to thinking and believing that the measurement of my personal value will
decrease in the eyes of others if I let go of or do not fit into the frame of what
I perceive and believe to be defined, encouraged and valued within this system as
‘the ideal self-image’, as who and how one must be and present themselves within
this world to be approved and to be seen as worthwhile person.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up the strive and attempt to fit
into the frame of what is being seen as the ideal self-image in terms of what I
perceive to be approved and valued externally in the context of how and who a
person should and require to be for others to praise, validate and value the
being – where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think
and believe that I will get exchanged/replaced with someone else within the
relationships that I have - thinking and believing that I won’t stand a chance
against people that I perceive to be more aligned and ranked higher on the
scale that measure one’s alignment and affiliation with the ideal self-image,
and so believing that I would consequentially be replaced within the
relationships that I have with other people.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to compromise and limit myself and my life through
placing greater importance and value on external validation than on creating a
relationship with me where I place value and importance on who I am and on establishing
unconditional self-acceptance, where I have allowed the approval of others to
be the standard by which I gauge my own worth – instead of seeing and realizing
that letting my perception of someone else’s opinion shape the view I have of
myself is actually a deliberate decision, wherein I decide to absorb and
incorporate the perception I form of what others think of me – and that I thus
have the ability, the capacity and the responsibility to stop placing value and
importance on external feedback and my perception of whether I manage to live
up to the ideal self-image or not – where I see and realize that I am
dishonoring, compromising and wasting my life and so myself as who I am through
accepting and allowing myself to attempt and try to mold and change myself into
becoming someone else externally – where nothing within me, as my internal circumstances,
will or can change through external adjustments and alterations.
- When and as I see that fear emerges
within me due to perceiving myself as who I am, what I accomplish or how I
look, to be inadequate/not good enough/not aligned with what is referred to as
ideally or affiliated with the belief I have formed within the mind towards
what an ideal self-image is – I stop and I breathe – within this I commit
myself to assist and support myself through taking a moment to breathe and
ground myself here, where I no more accept and allow myself to feed and empower
such internal fear and belief of myself and my worth as being defined and gauged
by how close or how far away I am from the image I have formed within the mind
in relation to what the ideal self-image is – but instead I commit myself to
assist and support myself to immediately stop my participation, bring myself
back to here and in that focus on what matters in terms of who I am and what I
accept and allow within - and so I make sure that I direct and move myself to not accept and allow any further participation within perceptions of myself that are based on comparisons with the idea I have formed of what an ideal self-image is but instead I reassert myself within the moment to assist and support myself to ground myself here through breath.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to create and form an ideal within the mind, consisting of the
self-image that I desire and want myself to be and become – as the idea I have
of who or what I have to be, as who I think and believe that I require to become
for me to be able to be satisfied with myself, for me to be able to stop
judging myself as inadequate and for me to be able to be confident and stop
comparing and stop competing with others – not seeing or realizing that what
fuels and empowers this internal experience of having to become something or
someone else then who I am and believe myself to be, as what I have allowed
myself to define myself as and by, to be able to become comfortable, confident
and satisfied with and within myself is my own participation, where I realize
that I accept and allow myself to actually take the decision to deliberately go
into, give value to and trust the idea that comes up within the mind as an
imagination of it being ‘who I am’ that is the problem, that is lacking, not
seeing and realizing that it is not the ‘who I am’ that is what needs to be
changed or aligned with the internal ideal I have formed, but it is rather the
definitions, perceptions and ideas I have in relation to who I am and how I see
myself that I require to change and recreate and that what needs to be stopped
is the value I allow myself to give to the ideal I have formed within the mind –
where I see and realize that the ideal I have formed within the mind is based
on external knowledge and information which I have given value to and trusted
to be what and who I need to be and become – where I have essentially
brainwashed myself into trusting and incorporating external messages and
propaganda in regards to ‘who and how one should be’ – instead of giving myself
the opportunity to trust myself to look within me, and so trust the actual understanding
I have in relation to how external messages about what is ideal and what is
not, are not in any way based on what is really in fact valuable within a human
being – as each being’s individual expression – wherein what is being taught
and encouraged within the system are rather the opposite – and I mean; how fun
would it be if every being became just copy of each other, just a bunch of clones?
Is that the type of world I would want to live within? No – so I see, realize
and understand that I would rather see individuals that actually dare living self-expression,
that dare standing up for who they are
as their real beingness, and so within this I see and realize that I have the
responsibility to be what I want to see within this world in terms of no more
accepting and allowing myself to attempt and try to be and become the ideal I
have formed within the mind as the apparent perfect self-image just so that I
can experience it as though I fit into the frame of what is being seen as an
acceptable image that I can present to the world – but to instead investigate,
find out and explore who I REALLY am, what it REALLY means to live
self-expression and within that practically establish self-acceptance where I live
the courage that I wish to see within this world, within other people – and so
realize that that would actually be so much more awesome than what it would be
to become just a clone, just another copy of the images and ideals that is
being imposed from this external world and reality – I mean, how can I trust this
society, when actually looking at how this system functions, to tell me who I
should be – when looking outside of myself and seeing the result of what we
have collectively accepted and promoted and followed and complied with?
