- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear that people will see me as less than others/not as
interesting or as good as other people and thus turn their backs on me and
leave or replace me with someone ‘better’ if I do not live up to and according
to the norms, as the constant strive to obtain and become the ideals that are
collectively being accepted as ideally within this society in terms of who and
how I believe I must and should be and present myself to the world for others
to see me as interesting enough/good enough/beautiful enough/worthy enough –
and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear existing on something other than a scale, measuring one's alignment and
affiliation with the ideal self-image consisting of what is being seen as
external perfection in terms of who and how one is, behaves and looks – wherein
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the
ideals that I have formed within the mind in relation to who and how I believe
I must be and so present and portray myself to the world to prevent others from
seeing me and the self-image I present as less than other people’s self-images –
due to thinking and believing that the measurement of my personal value will
decrease in the eyes of others if I let go of or do not fit into the frame of what
I perceive and believe to be defined, encouraged and valued within this system as
‘the ideal self-image’, as who and how one must be and present themselves within
this world to be approved and to be seen as worthwhile person.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up the strive and attempt to fit
into the frame of what is being seen as the ideal self-image in terms of what I
perceive to be approved and valued externally in the context of how and who a
person should and require to be for others to praise, validate and value the
being – where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think
and believe that I will get exchanged/replaced with someone else within the
relationships that I have - thinking and believing that I won’t stand a chance
against people that I perceive to be more aligned and ranked higher on the
scale that measure one’s alignment and affiliation with the ideal self-image,
and so believing that I would consequentially be replaced within the
relationships that I have with other people.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to compromise and limit myself and my life through
placing greater importance and value on external validation than on creating a
relationship with me where I place value and importance on who I am and on establishing
unconditional self-acceptance, where I have allowed the approval of others to
be the standard by which I gauge my own worth – instead of seeing and realizing
that letting my perception of someone else’s opinion shape the view I have of
myself is actually a deliberate decision, wherein I decide to absorb and
incorporate the perception I form of what others think of me – and that I thus
have the ability, the capacity and the responsibility to stop placing value and
importance on external feedback and my perception of whether I manage to live
up to the ideal self-image or not – where I see and realize that I am
dishonoring, compromising and wasting my life and so myself as who I am through
accepting and allowing myself to attempt and try to mold and change myself into
becoming someone else externally – where nothing within me, as my internal circumstances,
will or can change through external adjustments and alterations.
- When and as I see that fear emerges
within me due to perceiving myself as who I am, what I accomplish or how I
look, to be inadequate/not good enough/not aligned with what is referred to as
ideally or affiliated with the belief I have formed within the mind towards
what an ideal self-image is – I stop and I breathe – within this I commit
myself to assist and support myself through taking a moment to breathe and
ground myself here, where I no more accept and allow myself to feed and empower
such internal fear and belief of myself and my worth as being defined and gauged
by how close or how far away I am from the image I have formed within the mind
in relation to what the ideal self-image is – but instead I commit myself to
assist and support myself to immediately stop my participation, bring myself
back to here and in that focus on what matters in terms of who I am and what I
accept and allow within - and so I make sure that I direct and move myself to not accept and allow any further participation within perceptions of myself that are based on comparisons with the idea I have formed of what an ideal self-image is but instead I reassert myself within the moment to assist and support myself to ground myself here through breath.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to create and form an ideal within the mind, consisting of the
self-image that I desire and want myself to be and become – as the idea I have
of who or what I have to be, as who I think and believe that I require to become
for me to be able to be satisfied with myself, for me to be able to stop
judging myself as inadequate and for me to be able to be confident and stop
comparing and stop competing with others – not seeing or realizing that what
fuels and empowers this internal experience of having to become something or
someone else then who I am and believe myself to be, as what I have allowed
myself to define myself as and by, to be able to become comfortable, confident
and satisfied with and within myself is my own participation, where I realize
that I accept and allow myself to actually take the decision to deliberately go
into, give value to and trust the idea that comes up within the mind as an
imagination of it being ‘who I am’ that is the problem, that is lacking, not
seeing and realizing that it is not the ‘who I am’ that is what needs to be
changed or aligned with the internal ideal I have formed, but it is rather the
definitions, perceptions and ideas I have in relation to who I am and how I see
myself that I require to change and recreate and that what needs to be stopped
is the value I allow myself to give to the ideal I have formed within the mind –
where I see and realize that the ideal I have formed within the mind is based
on external knowledge and information which I have given value to and trusted
to be what and who I need to be and become – where I have essentially
brainwashed myself into trusting and incorporating external messages and
propaganda in regards to ‘who and how one should be’ – instead of giving myself
the opportunity to trust myself to look within me, and so trust the actual understanding
I have in relation to how external messages about what is ideal and what is
not, are not in any way based on what is really in fact valuable within a human
being – as each being’s individual expression – wherein what is being taught
and encouraged within the system are rather the opposite – and I mean; how fun
would it be if every being became just copy of each other, just a bunch of clones?
Is that the type of world I would want to live within? No – so I see, realize
and understand that I would rather see individuals that actually dare living self-expression,
that dare standing up for who they are
as their real beingness, and so within this I see and realize that I have the
responsibility to be what I want to see within this world in terms of no more
accepting and allowing myself to attempt and try to be and become the ideal I
have formed within the mind as the apparent perfect self-image just so that I
can experience it as though I fit into the frame of what is being seen as an
acceptable image that I can present to the world – but to instead investigate,
find out and explore who I REALLY am, what it REALLY means to live
self-expression and within that practically establish self-acceptance where I live
the courage that I wish to see within this world, within other people – and so
realize that that would actually be so much more awesome than what it would be
to become just a clone, just another copy of the images and ideals that is
being imposed from this external world and reality – I mean, how can I trust this
society, when actually looking at how this system functions, to tell me who I
should be – when looking outside of myself and seeing the result of what we
have collectively accepted and promoted and followed and complied with?
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to generate and habitually participate within a desire, want
and need to and towards attaining the experience of being more successful/accomplished/better
than others within the areas of which I participate within in my external world
and reality – and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to be and become dependent on such internal experience – where I within that
think and believe that for me to be able to enjoy what I do and motivate myself
to continue my participation, I require to interpret it and experience it as
though I am better/more accomplished than others, or that there is an
opportunity/chance for me to become better than others within that specific
area. – And within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my external
participation/involvement to be regulated and determined by the perception I
form within the mind in relation to ‘how accomplished others are within this
area’ – where I see and realize that I have formed an automatic pattern of
constantly and continuously assessing and ranking how good/accomplished others
are within the areas of which I also participate within or consider to start
participating within – where I am kind of like estimating where I am or could/would
be on the parameter/diagram I have formed within the mind – and in this
accepting and allowing the evaluation of ‘where I am/would/could be’ in
relation to others to determine how I experience myself, whether I will feel
good enough or not, if I will continue/start participating and how I feel about
others in regards to either seeing others as superior/a threat or not.
- And so within this I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite people that I perceive to be
better than or more successful/accomplished than me – but at the same time
thinking and believing that if I become ‘better than’ and more successful than
others, then people will be more inclined to accept and like me – not seeing or
realizing how I am revealing and showing to myself that I experience the contrary,
that I am not in any way more inclined to accept/like people that I perceive to
be ‘better’/more accomplished than me but will rather feel threatened and
intimidated by such people where I attempt to deteriorate them just so that I
can feel better about myself – so, how can I trust and give value to the belief
that ‘others will be and become more inclined to accept and like me if I am
better than them’ when my intuition is to dislike and not accept people that I
perceive to be better than me? – Since I would within that rather feel
intimidated, threaten, inadequate and less than such beings.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear that other people will overtake/move faster
than me when it comes to specific areas that I participate within in my
external world/reality – where I have accepted and allowed myself to see everything
as a race, as a competition - and I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear ‘falling behind’ or not moving as fast as others, and am
consequentially manifesting an internal reverberating experience of stress and
fear – accepting and allowing myself to participate within and generate a
constant internal conflict, where I am basically attempting and trying to fight
myself into keeping up with others and where I go into an automatic response of
fear whenever I interpret or perceive it as though I am falling behind or am
not moving as fast as others or another person – not seeing or realizing that I
am actually within this completely forgetting about and missing me, who I am
and what really in fact matters – where I get so preoccupied with winning a
race that I haven’t even considered asking myself why? – and within this I see,
realize and understand that the slight experience of ‘accomplishment’ that
emerge within me as a response to the interpretation I form of having accomplished
something or attained perfect results within something, does only last for a
split second – and then I am right back in the competition/race again – and so
I see, realize and understand that I am within this constantly attempting to
run away from the experience of ‘failure’, of being ‘less than others’ – but,
trying to run away from such experience is definitely not a solution, because I
realize that I am preventing myself from facing the fear and facing myself and
the creation I have constructed in relation to the integrated self-belief of
myself, who I am and my self-worth as something that is dependent on and
determined by the accomplishments I manage to achieve externally.
- I commit myself to assist and
support myself to face me, to face my own creation as how I have constructed
and formed my life to be and become a constant race – where I am essentially
running away from myself, from actually caring for myself and from developing
and living self-acceptance – I mean; shit, this is not how I want to live my
life, this is not what I want for myself or would want for anyone within this existence.
And so therefor I commit myself to assist and support myself within moments
where I see that I start to compare myself to others in the sense of assessing
who is better/more accomplished – where I in that immediately stop my
participation and breathe – in where I direct my attention and focus to stop
following, stop participating and stop obeying to what comes up within the mind
– but instead I bring myself back to here, back to breathing, where I correct
myself within such moments through realizing that I am one and equal to others,
that others are parts of me – and therefor I no more accept and allow myself to
separate myself from me through competing with others but instead I direct
myself to slow myself down and work with others, with myself – and so giving
myself the opportunity to face what it is that I am attempting to run away
from, where I have the tools with which to stabilize myself – and so with my
breathing, my self-forgiveness and self-corrections I commit myself to face my
own creation and explore how it is to live a life where I value who I am, and
in that get to know this ‘I’ through removing the current construct that I live
within that is based on valuing and defining this ‘I’ by the mind's
interpretation of what I externally can/do accomplish. Because within this I
see and realize that I am hiding behind external accomplishments, where I fear
facing who I am when peeling off the ‘acceptable image’ I portray and present
to the world. But, I realize that it is time – and so I commit myself to peel
off the layers and face who I am beneath the veil of what I do.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to feel the need to compete with other people in the sense
of comparing myself and who ‘I am’ in my external participation to how I
perceive others to be – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to think and believe that I require to prove to myself that
I am better than others for me to be able to accept myself – not seeing or
realizing that I am merely separating myself from me, and so from others,
through accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to others and within
that compete with the perception I form of who others are within the mind.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to react when and as I notice or perceive it as
though another person is deliberately attempting and trying to make it seem as
though he/she ‘is better’ in some way or another – and within this I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within fear, inadequacy and inferiority
as a response to seeing/perceiving it as though another person is starting a
competition about ‘who is the best in a specific area’ and in that ‘showing off’
– not seeing or realizing that within such instances/moments/situations I do
not have to go into, partake or participate within the competition – and just
because I perceive it as though another person is ‘showing off’ or attempting
to make him- or herself seem ‘better’ does not automatically mean that I have
to feel inferior or less than – that within situations where I perceive it as
though another person is starting a competition or am trying to put me down to
make themselves seem better, I can actually take the decision to direct myself,
to not participate, to not fuel the competition but to instead make sure that I
remain here, stable, breathing and within that take self-responsibility for any
experience of inadequacy or want/need/desire to partake and respond to the ‘competition’
– where I see, realize and understand that I do not have to show/prove to
another that ‘I am better than what they think’ – since that would merely fuel
the competition and separation even more. And within this I see, realize and understand
that the only reason for competition and comparison is internal insecurities –
and, so why would I want to feed another person’s insecurities and so my own
through taking a ‘competition’ seriously and partake within it?
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear that another person will see or perceive me
as inferior or less than them – and within that thinking and believing that I
have to prove them wrong if or when I interpret it as though another person is,
in some way or another, implying that I am less than them or less than who I
actually am – not seeing or realizing that whether another person sees me, or
sees a limited version of me does not really matter – it can only influence me
if and when I accept and allow myself to take it personally and so believe
myself to be the perception I perceive another to form of me.
- And so therefor I commit myself to
assist and support myself within moments/situations where I perceive it as
though another person is starting a competition about ‘who is the best’ when it
comes to a specific area – where I within this become aware of the tendency of
wanting to participate/partake within the competition due to fear of being seen
as ‘less than who I am’ – and when and as I see that the fear starts to emerge
within me, I commit myself to take a moment, breathe, bring myself back to here
where I see, realize and understand that I do not have to prove myself better
or prove to another that I am not ‘who they think I am’, that I am ‘just as
good as they are’ – no, I do not accept or allow myself to take part in the
competition but instead I make sure that I remain here, stable, breathing – and
within that see, realize and understand that ‘proving another person wrong’
will merely fuel and feed the competition and so the separation – therefor I
commit myself to re-instruct myself within such moments, where I direct myself
out of the want/need/desire to prove someone wrong or make myself ‘look better’
and instead I realize that I know who I am and so therefor I am in no need to
prove to another that I am adequate or ‘just as good as they are’ – and in that
I further realize that through going into such mental competition I will merely
fuel and empower another person’s insecurities and their internal need to prove
themselves as ‘good’ or ‘better than’ – and so I commit myself to instead just
stand here, with and as the other person in the sense of seeing and realizing
that we have both constructed ourselves in a similar way in the sense of
thinking and believing that we are inadequate and that we thus have to prove
ourselves worthy – and so through realizing this I take a stance to instead be and
stand as an example in the sense of showing that we do not have to compete with
each other, that I will not partake.
