- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to use excuses such as ‘I must do this and that’ as
justifications for never giving myself me-time or a moment for myself, where I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself a
break where I decide to just let go of everything I believe that I ‘have to/must
do’ and in that give myself a moment to care for myself, to look at the point
of; what do I need within my relationship to myself for me to be able to find
stability and balance in relation to my external participation – where I see,
realize and understand that I require to give myself a moment/moments as breaks
during the day – but that I instead have allowed myself to think and believe
that I do not have enough time for that, that there are more ‘important’ things
that needs to be prioritized – not seeing or realizing that I am existing
within and perpetuating an inherent pattern where I am basically manifesting a
‘burnout’ – which happens because of too much stress and in where I see and
realize that I am creating consequences due to not giving myself a moment/moments
as breaks during the day. And so within this I furthermore forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect and disregard myself through
instead prioritizing the things that I believe that I must do, not seeing or
realizing how I am within this completely missing life and living, where I have
instead allowed myself to formed my life according to and focused all my
attention on my external participation – and consequentially forgetting about
me and what is actually important and matters in terms of who I am within my
life, who I am within my self-relationship.
- And so I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that all that matters is what
I manage to do externally, in the sense of constantly and continuously
prioritizing what I do within my external reality and so neglecting,
disregarding and ignoring who I am within that – where I am focusing so much on
doing good ‘out there’ that I never give myself the opportunity to look at and
take responsibility for creating a life that I would really want for myself –
and in where I instead have allowed myself to become so preoccupied with doing
the things that I believe that I must do that I failed to realize that there
will always be things that I ‘must do’ within my external reality/world – and
that for me to be able to actually create a life that I would really want for
myself I require to find balance in the sense of giving myself that which I
require at the same time as I walk my external participation.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear taking a moment/moments as breaks during
the day due to thinking and believing that if I stop what I do for just a
moment, I might not get everything that I believe that I must do done. And
within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think
‘well, I take a moment later, when I am done’ – in where I consequentially
don’t take any breaks at all, as I am postponing it until ‘later’ – which I see,
realize and understand is a deliberate manipulation, because within this I
understand that if I tell myself that I will take a break later, then that
later will get postponed further and further. In this I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that ‘I can’t relax or
take a moment/break before I am done with all of my responsibilities’ – in where
I have accepted and allowed myself to trust this belief in the sense of really
believing that it is impossible for me to give myself a moment/moments as breaks
during the day without creating additional stress – not seeing or realizing how
this is just a belief, that I am actually capable of taking the decision to
give myself a moment/moments as breaks during the day and within that move and
direct myself out of any experience as reactions that may/might emerge as a
response to that – because within this I see, realize and understand that I
require to push through that resistance towards giving myself a moment/breaks
throughout my day – and within that change my daily participation through
incorporating some me-time, some time for me to rest and let go – otherwise it
can become consequential. And within this I see, realize and understand that,
for example, getting straight A’s in school is not something that will be of
any use if that means that I compromise my self-stability and my relationship
to me.
- And so I see, realize and understand
that for me to be able to live within self-stability and for me to be able to
actually enjoy life and living – I require to make some radical changes in
terms of how I approach things. Because within this I see, realize and
understand that I am currently existing within a pattern that does not support
me as life, a pattern that actually prevents me from really living – as I am
merely participating within and am directed by what I perceive that I must do
within my external reality, where the determining factor for my participation
consist of thoughts in relation to what I believe that I must do, where I miss
and disregard what I require in my self-relationship to be able to walk through
my external responsibilities as well – and within this I realize that I require
to change my approach, change my starting-point towards what I do – to instead
make sure that I am the one that decides what I do, instead of letting a
thought of ‘this is what I MUST do now’ be what determines what I do and do not
do – because within this I see, realize and understand that I cannot continue
existing within this habitual pattern of only considering and prioritizing my
external participation in for example school, but that I have to slow myself
down and take myself, my self-support and my self-stability into consideration
as well - to within that give myself a moment/moments as breaks during the day.
-
In this I commit myself to assist and support
myself within my relationship with me to further investigate the pattern that I
am existing within in terms of how I have formed my life to become only about
what I believe that I must do and in where I have allowed myself to
consequentially neglect, disregard and ignore myself and my self-stability
within what I am doing – and so within that walk through and incorporate the
changes that are required for me to be able to find stability and balance
within what I am doing – where I see and realize that one major point here
which I see myself requiring is to actually give myself a moment/moments as
breaks and me-time during the day – and so I commit myself to, through my
writings, my self-forgiveness and my corrective applications, assist and
support myself to release myself from the underlying reasons behind why I have
formed resistance/fear to and towards giving myself “me-time” – and within that
practically incorporate moments as breaks during the day to prevent myself from
manifesting additional strain on my physical and consequences in my
relationship to myself.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to create a pattern in where I am making things harder and
more difficult than what they actually are through self-sabotaging, in the
sense of looking at my external reality and so my external
participations/responsibilities and daily living and within me deciding to see
it as hard and as difficult – where I am habitually generating and perpetuating
an internal struggle and so experiences of stress and anxiety – where I have in
a way become so used to experiencing everything as hard and as difficult that I
am deliberately continuing to make things difficult for myself, where I in a
way want to struggle/fight as an addiction to inherent patterns – and within
this I see, realize and understand that I am actually making most things within
my life so much harder and much more difficult than what they have to be –
where I continually ensure a life of struggle through holding on to a belief in
relation to how I think that my life will turn out, a belief in relation to how
I think that my life has to be – not seeing or realizing that I am the only one
that is responsible for the struggle I am currently experiencing, that just
because my life has been a struggle in the past does not mean that I have to
persevere in such direction – that I now actually do have the ability to take
power over my own life and living and in that decide what type of starting-point
and approach I want to have towards my participation – where I now see, realize
and understand that the current approach I have towards every aspect of my life
are permeated with an internal experience of struggle – where I actually have
allowed myself to become addicted to struggling, to making things hard, to
self-sabotaging through constantly anticipate failure, misery and difficulties.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to just accept my life to be hard and difficult –
where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly
expect, assume and anticipate that I will always be faced with difficulties,
that that is just how my life is and has always been – where things that can ‘go
wrong’ will go wrong – not seeing or realizing how I am within this
self-sabotaging through accepting and allowing myself to constantly assume that
anything bad that can happen, will happen to me – because within this I see,
realize and understand that when I assume that things will be difficult and
hard, I am consequentially creating such a life for myself – and within this I
see, realize and understand that it is time for me to take my life in my own
hands and in that re-instruct, re-create and re-establish my approach towards
my external participation – and so I commit myself to further investigate this
point, as the addiction to inherent patterns, and within that stop the pattern
of deliberately creating struggles within my life – but to instead see what I
can do, who I can be and how I can experience myself within my life and living
if I stop the tendency of self-sabotaging through making everything so
difficult.
