- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear the outcome and possible consequences of people not
forming a positive opinion, perception and idea of me – in where I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my safety,
my life and I would be in danger and threatened if and when another person/people
would form opinions, ideas or perceptions of me that are based on negativity and
disapproval and that I thus have to protect myself, my life and my own safety
through making sure that who I am when being with or around others/another is
aligned with what that specific person/people prefer and approves of and so aligned
with what will activate and generate positive reactions and responses within
the beings/being that I am encountering – not seeing or realizing that I can in
no way control other people’s reactions or responses – because I see and
realize that people will react differently to different types of behaviors
within people – which then shows me that how a person reacts or respond to a
certain behavior or another being is merely a result of how that person has
created their mind, where the opinions and possible experiences are merely
products of memories – which I see within myself and so realize within myself,
that what I react to and how I react, what activates, triggers and generates
experiences and reactions and responses within me through external
circumstances and other people, are merely products and results of my past, my
memories in regards to what I have connected to certain conditions, behaviors,
words, pictures etc. wherein the things I’ll see and hear through others, through
their words and behaviors, are something that I have, within the mind, formed and
linked specific experiences, perceptions, ideas and opinions to and towards –
but it has nothing to do with the person/people I meet here and now, since the
opinions and experiences already exists within me – and they merely get
triggered and activated by certain conditions and situations as a result of the
memories that I have formed and linked to certain behaviors, words etc. – and so,
I see realize and understand that fearing other people’s minds, that fearing
the possibility of standing as a point or dimension that will trigger, activate
and generate negatively charged opinions, experiences and perceptions within
another/other people is really conditioning and compromising and limiting my
life and my relationship to me – where I see and realize that what I want for
myself within my life and within my relationship to me and my relationship with
others is for me to focus on BEING ME, on living the courage to stand for,
stand by and stand WITH who I am in the sense of assisting and supporting
myself to be stable within myself, and so trust myself within who I AM in every
moment – that living my life in fear of how others entire mind works is very,
very silly, as I see and realize that I cannot control others reactions since
reactions and opinions and responses are merely outflows and outcomes of the
person’s past and memories and their history, childhood and so what they have
been presented with within their lives – and I realize that who I am will be
seen through a veil and layer that are based on the beings past as their inhabited
preferences and the specific connections they have formed and linked between
behaviors/words and internal responses/experiences.
- And so therefor I commit myself to
assist and support myself in practical reality when I am encountering or
participating with other beings through being aware of the tendency I have of
going into fear of not pleasing and getting approval from others due to the
belief and idea that my safety, my life and I am at risk if the self-image that
I present in some way activates, triggers or generates negatively charged opinions,
perceptions and experiences within another or other people – and so within that
I commit myself to practically support myself when and as I see myself going
into fear of other people’s possible reactions/experiences/opinions and so the
urge to mold, adjust and change myself to protect myself and ensure that I do
not contribute to activating negatively charged experiences within another –
where I within this stop and breathe, where I see and realize that I cannot
control other people’s reactions or the process behind what triggers reactions,
opinions and experiences within another’s mind – and within that I also realize
that it’s the mind’s reaction, not even the real person – therefor I commit
myself to direct myself out of the fear, bring myself back to here where I
stand up within myself and decide to focus on BEING ME, and so, within moments
where I see that I am accessing fear of triggering reactions that are based on
negativity within other people’s minds I re-instruct myself to stop my
participation in fear and instead focus on being me, where I no more accept and
allow myself to live my life in fear of how others entire mind works but to
instead establish and live the courage to be me and so trust myself and my
capacity to stand up for myself, as I realize that I now have the capacity to
protect and stand up for myself, thus I do not require or need to fear other’s
negatively charged internal experiences.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear not being aligned with how other people would prefer
and want me to be in the context of who I am, how I behave and how I look –
wherein I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt and
try to mold, shape and adjust myself as the totality of who I am depending on
who I am encountering, where I just instantaneously and automatically go into
this pattern of adjusting, changing, molding and shaping myself with the
starting-point of wanting, needing and desiring to attain the perception and
interpretation of being someone that satisfies and pleases the
person’s/people’s personal preferences in regards to what they appreciate, like
and what activates and generates positive reactions and feelings within the
individuals that I am facing.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by others/another person – wherein
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being faced
with situations or moments where I perceive that who I am activates and
generates negatively charged thoughts and experiences within another being –
and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and
believe that if I am rejected by another person/others or am activating
negatively charged experiences or thoughts within another then that would mean,
and be an evidence of the fact that I am not good enough and that who I am is
not a worthwhile person – where I will thus allow myself to attempt and try to
mold and shape myself so that I can avoid and prevent others from forming
perceptions and opinions of me that are based on negativity due to thinking and
believing that if I fail to make a ‘positive impression’ but instead activates
and generates negative responses/reactions within others then I will
consequentially HAVE TO feel inadequate, humiliated, less than, worthless,
useless, self-hate and so on.
- I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am taking the
decision to utilize my perception of being rejected by others to confirm the
judgments and opinions that I already have of myself in regards to being
inadequate, less than, worthless, useless etc. – wherein such opinions and
definitions does already exist within me through my acceptances and allowances
in my relationship to myself – and that that is the only reason for why I would
fear being rejected by others – because within this I see, realize and
understand that if I would not have any negatively charged experiences and thoughts
about myself within myself, that if I would not allow any form of self-judgment,
then I would not be able to make such connection within the mind in relation to
gauging my self-worth and self-value according to the perception I form of what
reactions/thoughts/experiences I generate and activate within others – and I
see and realize that what I see in others are merely reflections of myself, of
my own experiences of me - of my own
self-relationship, wherein I see and realize that I am, every single day,
rejecting myself, activating and generating negatively charged thoughts and
experiences about myself – wherein I am the one that do not respect and
accept myself and have consequentially thus placed such responsibility on others
and so also given away the decision of who I am through accepting and allowing
myself to define and decide who I am based on what I think and believe others
to think and feel about me, what I think, believe and perceive myself to
activate and generate within others – and I forgive myself that I have, for so
long, for too long, accepted and allowed myself to attempt and try to create and
become a self, as I am, that would be seen as acceptable and adequate for
others where I never allowed myself to let go of the idea and belief that I can
only accept myself and respect myself and love myself when I am confirmed as
good enough by others, when I can confirm that I have removed the possibility
of activating negatively charged thoughts and experiences within others – not seeing
or realizing that this possibility will inevitably exist as a possible outcome
within my mind for as long as I allow myself to define and gauge my self-worth
according to how I think and believe others to see and feel about me, because I
cannot remove the possibility of activating negatively charged thoughts and
experiences within myself as a response to the perception I form of my external
world’s response to me through changing who I am externally – that for as long
as I allow myself to judge and form negative opinions of me I will
consequentially see such judgments and opinions within others as reflections of
what I internally accept and allow.
- And so I see and realize that to
stop fearing rejection within my world I require to stop rejecting myself
through thoughts, words and deeds – I require to bring this point back to me
and instead of trying to change and mold myself as an attempt to align myself
with others personal preferences as what and who they prefer others to be, I
have to focus on the real problem here – which is what I accept and allow
within me, what I accept and allow myself to define and judge and hate myself
for and why it is that I just do not want to stop hating and judging and
bullying myself, what is the secret agenda here? What is it that I want to
achieve? Because I realize that I can, in every moment, take that decision to
stop, to stop projecting my self-judgments onto others, to stop finding excuses
for why I am inadequate, to stop manipulating myself into thinking and believing
that it is legitimate and justifiable for me to hate and judge and blame myself
if I have managed to interpret it as though the initial rejection or
disapproval came from another or others. And so why wouldn’t I stop this? Why would
I want to continue?
- And so therefor I commit myself to
really investigate, open up and look at this construct in regards to the value
I place into the perception I form of what others think and feel about me, in
regards to the desire, want and need to activate and generate certain thoughts
and experiences within others and in regards to the fear of triggering
negatively charged emotions and thoughts within others – where I see and
realize that what I think that I am generating, activating and triggering
within another/others are merely just a reflection of what I think and feel
about myself, what I allow myself to generate and activate within me – and so I
commit myself to stop projecting, to stop separating myself from me through
fearing others rejection and experiences of me to instead see and realize that
what I do fear is how I experience myself as a response to the perception I
form of what others think and experience – and the opinions I believe others to
form of me are just revealing and showing me the opinion I allow to exist within
me of myself – and therefor, through my writings, self-forgiveness and
self-correction, I commit myself to walk through this, to face this me that I
have created myself as and in that bring all the pieces back to me in the sense
of taking self-responsibility for what I accept and allow within my relationship
with me and so no more accept and allow myself to mold and shape myself to
attempt and try to avoid and prevent rejection but to instead make sure that I
stop rejecting myself, that I stop judging and blaming and hating myself and within
that see and realize that the reason for why I would fear external rejection is
due to self-rejection in thoughts, words and deeds.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I must not, and have ‘no
right to’, come across as self-confident in class and on upcoming exams after
not having done well on the latest exam – wherein I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear that others and the teacher will perceive
it as though I am not aware of how bad I performed in my latest exam or that
people/the teacher will perceive it as though I am not ashamed of my bad performance
if I come across as confident.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have to be ashamed of
my most recent performance within the previous exam to show myself and others/the
teacher that ‘I am better than that’ and that I am punishing myself through
being ashamed, that I am disciplining myself through being hard on myself and
blaming myself – where I feel the need to show and state that I am not proud of
my former performance, that I do not in any way accept such bad performance,
through acting and going into the experience of shame and self-criticism – where
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need to
show the teacher how ‘bad I feel’ and how I in no way accept such bad results –
that I in no way accept myself when I have performed ‘so lousy’ – and within
that accepting and allowing my continued participation within school to suffer
and get conditioned through accepting and allowing myself to fear acting and
coming across in any other way than as being ashamed and embarrassed, where I
see and realize that I am empowering and generating the experiences of being
unconfident, self-doubtful, nervous and anxious which are experienced that will
really not help me within my participation in my upcoming exam – as I have seen
and realized that these experiences will rather prevent me from actually
showing my capacity and I am within this merely trapping myself as I see and
realize that accepting and allowing myself to be unconfident and self-doubting
does inevitably lead to a lesser capacity to perform well and allowing such
experiences are thus deliberate self-sabotage – and I mean; am I willing to
lower my grade even more just because I fear coming off as confident when I
believe that I should be ashamed?
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that being hard on myself and
blaming myself whenever I perceive my external
performances/achievements/participation to be imperfect or not good enough
indicates that I am ‘self-aware’ and that it makes me ‘a better person’ since I
am at least then apparently aware of my inadequacies and showing/stating to
others and so to myself that I do not accept this from myself, that I am not
unaware of, stand for or am proud of myself and my
performances/participation/achievements - where I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and define being hard on myself
as something that is positive and a good thing that makes me ‘a good person’ –
not seeing or realizing how being hard on myself and blaming myself has never
in fact lead me to becoming better at what I externally do or helped me
performing better – since I within this become so preoccupied with blaming and
being hard on myself that I consequentially prevent myself from really trusting
myself and so standing within and as self-confidence when being faced with a
situation wherein my capacity is being ‘tested’.
- And so I see, realize and understand
that to be able to do my best within my upcoming exam I require to direct
myself out of shame and self-blame and so instead decide to stand as
self-confidence and self-trust, where I see and realize that I am only able to
do my actual best when I do not allow a simultaneous internal fight and
conflict – because when I allow myself to participate within shame and being
hard on myself I am literally fighting with myself where what I would need is
to work and walk with me – and therefor
I commit myself to assist and support myself in the continuation through making
sure that I move myself out of self-doubt and do not accept and allow myself to
be hard on myself due to perceiving myself to having performed lousy in my
latest exam – but to instead let go of and give myself a clear and new
opportunity where I do not accept and allow the belief of myself as being a
better person and/or coming off as more aware if I am appearing as ashamed and
disappointed at myself to influence and control my participation within my upcoming
exam. Instead I commit myself to support myself when I see that I am being hard
on myself through immediately directing myself back to here where I commit
myself to walk with myself in and as who I am, here – where I see and realize
that it is only me blaming myself, and that this will not help me in any kind
of way and so therefor I re-instruct myself to stand on my own side in the
sense of not accepting and allowing myself to continue this pattern of
following and complying with the need to be seen as ‘a good person’ for
recognizing my apparent inadequacies – but instead I focus on being here,
standing with me and so doing my best through moving myself out of self-blame
and back to here through breathing – where I commit myself to give myself this
opportunity to explore and investigate how it would be like to no more accept
and allow self-blame to influence and control me.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to want, need and desire other people to react in a specific
way as a response to the image I present to the world – where I within this
have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that the reactions I
may/might trigger within other people defines who I am in the context of my
value and worth – where I see and realize that I am basically utilizing my
perception of how other people respond and react to and towards the image I
present of myself to the world to measure who I am and to gauge my value and
worth– and so within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed
myself to develop a well-grounded understanding of the true nature of personal
value in the sense of actually valuing life and real living – in relation to
developing and investigating what real living, real expression is and means –
but have instead accepted and allowed myself to form an alternate reality as a
result of allowing myself to adopt the distorted views that I have been
presented with from this external world/reality – without ever questioning or
investigating the beliefs, ideas and ideals that I have endorsed in terms of
looking at and really live the understanding of how limiting these beliefs are,
where I see and realize that the ideals and self-beliefs that I have formed and
adopted as a result of the distorted views this external reality promotes are
merely just opinions, ideas, beliefs – which means that they are not real, not
tangible, not based on what is best for all or even based on any real value
what so ever – and yet, I have allowed myself to mold my viewpoint about/of
myself according to this.
- In this I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear not feeling secure with myself as a person,
where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to search and
look for inner peace and security connected to feeling good about who I am
through seeking approval from my external reality and other people, and within
that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate
myself from internal stability in terms of actually standing with who I am and
so trust myself, accept myself and give myself approval – and I forgive myself
that I have within this accepted and allowed myself to create a
polarity-construct in the sense of believing myself to require approval and
validation from external sources to be able to ‘feel secure’ – and so
consequentially manifesting the other side of the polarity, as the fear of external
disapproval, criticism and rejection and the perception thereof – and so within
that becoming dependent on external factors to feel approved of instead of
seeing and realizing that remaining within such dependency on external factors
to feel approved of, I will consequentially always remain within this
polarity-game, this constant internal conflict and friction of fear and desire
– where how I see myself will be in the hands of things that I have no control
over.
- I commit myself to assist and
support myself within situations and moments where I see that my starting-point
behind something I feel the need to say or do is based on the internal
experience of wanting approval from my external reality/other people in
relation to the want, need and desire to stimulate/trigger specific reactions within
other people and when I see that my starting-point is based on fear of
rejection/criticism/disapproval – and so within that re-instruct myself to no
more accept and allow myself to let an experience of wanting approval/validation
or fearing rejection to be the starting-point behind who I am, how I am or what
I say/do – but instead I immediately stop and breathe, where I take a moment
and so re-establish my starting-point to no more accept and allow myself to
search and look for approval/validation outside of myself – and so in that see
and realize that to stop the fear of criticism, rejection and disapproval I require
to stop the search and desire to stimulate/trigger specific responses within
others to/towards me, since it is based on the same belief – as the belief I
have created in relation to placing my own worth and value within the
perception I form of what and how other’s sees and feels about me.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear experiencing and interpreting it as though other
people within my surrounding are more aligned with the ideal I have formed
within the mind in relation to who I believe that I have to be as the
self-image that I have come to perceive myself to require as a result of what I
have learned to see as appreciated/valued by others – in the context of looking
at who and how one must be to reactive positive feedback as
validation/confirmation/attention/appreciation from other people, and within
where I believe myself to require appreciation and being seen as a worthwhile
person by others for me to be able to see myself as worthy – and within this I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe
that this would apparently mean that I am less than and inferior to beings
which I perceive to be more aligned with the idea I have formed of what the
ideal self-image is – not seeing or realizing that I am the only one making
myself feel less than and inferior – that this experience is a result of the
consent and value I allow myself to give to the belief I have formed in regards
to what the ideal self-image is and further giving value to the idea that
beings are either superior or inferior dependent on how aligned/affiliated the
self-image that they present to the world is to the ideal I have formed and
given value to within my mind as well as the value I give to the perception I
form of how other people see me and respond to how/who I am.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to go into a reaction of fear when and as I
perceive another person to get
recognition/validation/confirmation/attention/appreciation from others – and
within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear which
would emerge to trigger an automatic pattern that I have formed, in where I
automatically will attempt and try to deteriorate, diminish and discredit other
people within the mind whenever I perceive a being to be better than me, more
aligned with the ideal self-image that I have formed within the mind or if I
perceive another person to get more
validation/confirmation/attention/appreciation than me – wherein I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to either make the person appear
less than/not worthy of the recognition through secretly diminishing the being
within my mind where I’m essentially searching and looking for aspects with the
being that I can utilize as a means to make myself feel and see myself as less
inferior, or allow myself to go into an experience of myself as being less than
where I just submit to and fully trust the belief and idea of myself as being
less worthwhile as a person.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to go into a competition-construct within the mind
when and as I perceive another person to receive recognition from others for how
or who the person is or for something that the person has achieved, wherein I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed instances where I perceive or
interpret it as though another person is getting recognition to be and become a
trigger-point that activates an automatic response within me, consisting of the
experience of being challenged, where I believe that the self-image that I
present to the world is being challenged – and in this have thus
consequentially allowed myself to separate myself from, compare and compete
with the being that I perceive to get attention/confirmation/validation/recognition
– thinking and believing that my value and worth are at stake – and so
believing that I require to assure my own worthiness as a person through
changing who and how I am to be more aligned with what I see others to get
recognition for.
- I commit myself to assist and
support myself within situations where I see that another person/other beings
are getting recognition from the surrounding; through within that being aware
of the tendency I have of going into fear – where I realize that the fear is
the automatic response that triggers the pattern of going into either an
internal competition through comparing and judging myself and my own worth in
comparison to the other being/beings or the pattern of going into the mind
where I’ll attempt/try to deteriorate, diminish and discredit other people due
to believing that my self-image is at stake – and so within this I commit
myself to prevent myself from going in to this construct through being aware
of, and flag-point, these situations/occasions – and so within that no more
accept and allow myself to take it further when and as I see that fear starts
to emerge, but to instead immediately stop and breathe when and as I see myself
reacting to/towards the perception I form of other people’s achievements and
the recognition they’ll get – and so within me I assert myself to not participate,
to not go into the pattern of comparing/competing/judging – but instead stand
within who I am, and so reinstruct myself within the moment and realize that I
know where this takes me, that this that is coming up within my mind is not so
cool, really not assisting and supporting me and it’s really actually fucking
me up within myself and my physical and my life – and therefor I take my place
within myself, within my mind, relationship to I am and relationship to my
physical body and so stand in that position of really taking responsibility for
who I am, for what I want, for how I want to be, for how I want to experience
myself and my physical and my life within this world and reality.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear the experience of not being confident when being
with or around other people – and within this I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that the only way for me to reassure
that I prevent and evade the experiences of being uncomfortable and unconfident
is through becoming as aligned and affiliated with the ideal that I have formed
within the mind as I possibly can, so that I can present this ideal self-image
of myself to the world – and within this I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that experiences of
being uncomfortable and unconfident comes from within, as a result of my
internal participation within self-judgments stemming from the basic idea I
have formed of myself – and that solving these internal experiences of being
uncomfortable and unconfident in certain situations will not and cannot be done
through allowing and giving my consent/approval to self-judgments, and the
experiences it result in, to decide who I am or my self-worth – because within
that I am merely feeding and generating the program that I have formed within
me – where I see and realize that changing ‘who I am’ externally as an attempt
to become more aligned with the ideal self-image that I have formed within the
mind, will and can merely suppress the symptoms as the internal experiences of inadequacy
for so long, since I am not actually in any way changing, like really changing
who I am within in the sense of establishing actual self-confidence – but am
only creating a shielding layer as a measure of protection which I can hide
behind to feel better about myself for just a while – until I find yet another thing
about me that is not aligned with the ideal self-image. And so I see, realize
and understand that to really establish actual self-confidence I require to
stop this program, to stop this from the within to the without – where the only
solution lays within me, within me as my self-awareness.
- And so I commit myself to see,
realize and understand that I have the capacity, the ability and the
responsibility to decide what I am going to accept and allow within me and so
without – where I realize that emerging as that self-awareness is a decision
that has to be made in practical reality, and so I commit myself to assist and
support myself within situations where I see that judgments emerges within me
and so I immediately stop my participation, I breathe and I bring myself back
to here – where I stand as that awareness, leading my own life and thus
standing as that decision to no more accept and allow myself to attempt and try
to suppress the symptoms of the basic idea I have formed of myself in the
context of being inadequate through attempting and trying to mold and align
myself to become more like the ideal self-image that I believe to exist – but instead
I face the basic idea that I have formed of myself and so stop accepting and
allowing self-beliefs to tell me who I am – and so start directing myself
within the situations where I see that the experiences of being uncomfortable
or unconfident emerges – where I, within my awareness, realize that this is
merely an experience, it does not mean that I have to go into, give value to or
trust it – and so therefor I commit myself to practice this point of
practically asserting myself within these situations where I direct myself not
to take the judgments or experience of being unconfident personally – but instead
within me decide to give myself the opportunity to find out what would happen
and how it would be when I do not go into it or trust it to be me but instead
just state ‘No, till here no further’.
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear that people will see me as less than others/not as
interesting or as good as other people and thus turn their backs on me and
leave or replace me with someone ‘better’ if I do not live up to and according
to the norms, as the constant strive to obtain and become the ideals that are
collectively being accepted as ideally within this society in terms of who and
how I believe I must and should be and present myself to the world for others
to see me as interesting enough/good enough/beautiful enough/worthy enough –
and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear existing on something other than a scale, measuring one's alignment and
affiliation with the ideal self-image consisting of what is being seen as
external perfection in terms of who and how one is, behaves and looks – wherein
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the
ideals that I have formed within the mind in relation to who and how I believe
I must be and so present and portray myself to the world to prevent others from
seeing me and the self-image I present as less than other people’s self-images –
due to thinking and believing that the measurement of my personal value will
decrease in the eyes of others if I let go of or do not fit into the frame of what
I perceive and believe to be defined, encouraged and valued within this system as
‘the ideal self-image’, as who and how one must be and present themselves within
this world to be approved and to be seen as worthwhile person.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up the strive and attempt to fit
into the frame of what is being seen as the ideal self-image in terms of what I
perceive to be approved and valued externally in the context of how and who a
person should and require to be for others to praise, validate and value the
being – where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think
and believe that I will get exchanged/replaced with someone else within the
relationships that I have - thinking and believing that I won’t stand a chance
against people that I perceive to be more aligned and ranked higher on the
scale that measure one’s alignment and affiliation with the ideal self-image,
and so believing that I would consequentially be replaced within the
relationships that I have with other people.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to compromise and limit myself and my life through
placing greater importance and value on external validation than on creating a
relationship with me where I place value and importance on who I am and on establishing
unconditional self-acceptance, where I have allowed the approval of others to
be the standard by which I gauge my own worth – instead of seeing and realizing
that letting my perception of someone else’s opinion shape the view I have of
myself is actually a deliberate decision, wherein I decide to absorb and
incorporate the perception I form of what others think of me – and that I thus
have the ability, the capacity and the responsibility to stop placing value and
importance on external feedback and my perception of whether I manage to live
up to the ideal self-image or not – where I see and realize that I am
dishonoring, compromising and wasting my life and so myself as who I am through
accepting and allowing myself to attempt and try to mold and change myself into
becoming someone else externally – where nothing within me, as my internal circumstances,
will or can change through external adjustments and alterations.
- When and as I see that fear emerges
within me due to perceiving myself as who I am, what I accomplish or how I
look, to be inadequate/not good enough/not aligned with what is referred to as
ideally or affiliated with the belief I have formed within the mind towards
what an ideal self-image is – I stop and I breathe – within this I commit
myself to assist and support myself through taking a moment to breathe and
ground myself here, where I no more accept and allow myself to feed and empower
such internal fear and belief of myself and my worth as being defined and gauged
by how close or how far away I am from the image I have formed within the mind
in relation to what the ideal self-image is – but instead I commit myself to
assist and support myself to immediately stop my participation, bring myself
back to here and in that focus on what matters in terms of who I am and what I
accept and allow within - and so I make sure that I direct and move myself to not accept and allow any further participation within perceptions of myself that are based on comparisons with the idea I have formed of what an ideal self-image is but instead I reassert myself within the moment to assist and support myself to ground myself here through breath.
