How to Find Motivation When You'd Rather Give up - Day 397
- I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to be and become completely dependent on perceiving it as though
it is possible for me to attain the highest grade as an end-result of my
participation within a specific subject for me to be able to motivate myself
into studying - in the sense of seeing studying as something that is worthwhile
and enjoyable – wherein I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to be and become unmotivated and resisting studying after having messed
up an exam, wherein I all of a sudden would feel as though there is no use
because I have already missed my chance of attaining an A as my final grade –
and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think “what’s the use” – where I would allow myself to physically and practically
become that statement, where I find myself unable to motivate and move myself
to study, which I see and realize is a result and indication of having formed a
starting-point for studying which was never completely based on a self-movement
but rather on having formed the idea of it being possible for me to attain the
highest grade.
- Within this I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to feel as though I just want to give up,
where I see and realize that my motivation for studying is merely based on the
perception I have formed of it being possible for me to attain an A in my final
grade, wherein that dependency would result in an experience of being
unmotivated when and as I saw myself losing that prospect.
- And so I furthermore forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed everything that I do, and my motivation for
actually moving and pushing myself within what I decide to do, to be dependent
on and determined by the perception I form of what I am able to attain through
my participation – wherein I realize that I will actually merely feel motivated
to participate when I have formed the perception of it being possible for me to
attain a great result, and so whenever I perceive it as impossible for me to
attain a great result I don’t see any purpose to participate – and I realize
that this applies to pretty much everything within my reality, where my
interpretation of the possible outcome will determine how motivated I feel to
participate.
- I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to live self-movement within what I do and decide
to participate within, but have instead accepted and allowed my perception of
the possible outcome to determine how motivated I feel – not seeing or
realizing how this is extremely self-limiting, as I become dependent on attaining
an experience and belief in regards to seeing an opportunity of possibly
attaining an experience of ‘being great’ within what I am doing or going to do for
me to actually move myself and enjoy what I do – and so letting my
starting-point be permeated with the interpretation I have formed of the
possible outcome, and so already before starting something will assess what the
outcome may/might be – projecting myself into the future and so preventing
myself from moving myself, moment by moment, in self-direction.
- I commit myself to assist and
support myself within my school-participation to not ever accept and allow the
experience of being unmotivated and the back-chat “what’s the use” to control
and direct me into not studying – and so when I see that the back-chat “what’s
the use” emerges within the mind, where an experience of not being motivated
comes up, I stop and I breathe – where I commit myself to stop my participation
and within that take a stance to move myself out of the mind, where I do not
listen and do not trust the mind to tell me what to do but instead I move
myself, I take that opportunity to show myself capable of directing myself –
and so I take responsibility through re-instructing and re-asserting myself
within that moment to become the directive principle of me, where I re-align my
starting-point to be ‘I move myself’ and thus practice on that in every moment
where I see what needs to be done, and so I move myself to study, I practically
sit down and focus, and whenever I see the mind interfere I take a moment to
breathe, slow myself down and so move myself back to here and place my
attention on practical, physical reality – to in that stop the dependency of
experience and ideas about the outcome for me to be able to move myself within
what I am doing – to instead make sure that no matter what the outcome
may/might be I make sure that I do what needs to be done and so do my best,
where I thus remind myself of the fact that this is what matters – as the point
of who I am within what I am doing, that this is what shows me WHO I AM and is
thus what will form my relationship with myself – because within this I see, realize
and understand that who I am within my relationship with me is what gets
influenced and determined by who I am within what I am doing, where I realize
that I am not trustworthy, that I cannot trust myself really, if I do not show myself
and walk my capacity, ability and responsibility to be the directive principle
of me – and so, when I see that I experience myself as unmotivated and want to
kind of like just ‘give up’ – I remind myself of this, I remind myself of the
fact that what I am giving up on is me, is myself, is my integrity and my
self-responsibility – that this has nothing to do with school at all but that
it is rather about who I decide to be, what I decide to influence and control
me – and I do not accept and allow my relationship with me to be and become deteriorated
due to me, not taking self-responsibility through making sure that I MOVE
myself, but instead I see the moments where I feel unmotivated as opportunities
for me to show myself real strength, real self-respect and real self-movement
through taking my life in my own hands and so decide to move myself from within
to the without and thus replace the experience of attaining motivation from
external factors, such as attaining the perception of it being possible for me
to attain good results, with a movement as motivation from within, where I move
myself as motivation from the within to the without.
Really cool! I wish I read/realized this when I was in school...at least I get to see it now! Thanks
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